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Name: Allie Birthday: 12/31/1986 Gender: Female
Interests: Guitar, Snowboarding, Hanging out with friends, Writing useless crap that no one ever reads Expertise: Reeking Havoc Occupation: Student Industry: Other
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11/24/2003
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| So, although it appears that no one has been on Xanga for ages, I figured that today would be a pretty good day to post in the hopes that everyone else is as ecstatic about our new president as I am. I have to admit, I was concerned that I might be forced to move out of the country and deny the fact that I am an American citizen. Thank my lucky stars, that wasn't necessary. I am confident that things have finally taken a turn for the better. In addition to that, I was particularly pleased to see that Proposals 1 and 2, supporting medical marijuana and stem cell research, passed in Michigan! That said, I was truly appalled by the fact that same-sex marriages were revoked in California. Even more frustrating, was reading the following excerpt from Reuter’s: "SAN FRANCISCO (Reuters) - California revoked same-sex marriage this week and more states joined the strong majority that define marriage as between a man and a woman -- yet gay rights activists see a bright future for their cause. While a conservative-backed ballot measure banning same-sex marriage passed in America's most populous state on Tuesday, it is a measure of the gay movement's success that it is now fighting for civil rights instead of mere acceptance of a sexual orientation that was seen as deviant and criminalized just a few decades ago."
Really? Yes, it’s a great thing that people have become more accepting of homosexuality, but at the same time it’s very disturbing that people haven’t come to realize that homosexuals are human beings, and as such, deserve the same rights as the rest of us. There is a reason that California decided to permit gay marriage in the first place: because it’s the right thing to do. Hopefully, enough people will show their disapproval and it will be permitted not only in California, but everywhere in America, as it should be. Nevertheless, we should all be very proud to have witnessed such a historical event--and proud that we've finally transcended somewhat tacit—yet extremely orthodox and narrow-minded—notion that one must be a white male to effectively lead our country. On that note, I would like to close with something that really made me smile....My precious little niece, who is now just about one-and-a-half years old, has been running around my sister’s house screaming "OBAMA MAMA!" for about three days now. And no, it wasn't brain-washing, she learned it all on her own (even if my sister and brother-in-law do gush about him in front of her a lot, haha). Hope all is well with everyone from LAS! Much Love. | | |
| SURVEY: >YOU< 1. Name? Alexandra (Allie) Knight 2. Date of birth? 12/31/1986
>CLOTHES<
3. Colour of kinkiest underwear? Black 4. Favorite way to dress? Fashionably, of course. Umm, I like earth tones….brown and green ? 5. Most expensive item in your wardrobe? Hmm, that would have to be a tie between an $800 fur wrap coat I bought on sale for $420 and an A.B.I dress I got for the same price. 6. Favorite piece of clothing? My skinny jeans 7. High heels/sandals? Heels 8. Boots/trainers? Boots 9. Fishnet tights/colourful stockings? Fishnets are cool, I'm not a big one for really bright coloured stockings and stuff.
>DRINK<
10. Cider? Yum…especially when it has alcohol in it. 11. Lager/bitter/stout/beer? Lager 12. Vodka? Popov bitches….I like the cheap stuff—being a college student and all. But, when someone else pays for it, I like Absolut or Smirnoff 13. Whiskey? Meh, I like everything alcoholic, but it's not my favorite. 14. Baileys? Of course, irish coffee anyone? 15. White wine? Yum. Pinot Grigio… 16. Red wine? I like white better… 17. Bacardi? Reminds me of the time I got really drunk and passed out naked in a public park
>FAVORITES-TOP 3<
18. Magazine? 1 OK 2 US Weekly 3 People/Cosmopolatain
19. TV-programme? 1 House 2 Lost 3 Law and Order: SVU
20. Newspaper? 1 Michigan Daily 2 New York Times 3 Washington Post
21. Book? 1 A Million Little Pieces 2 Dress Your Family in Cordurouy and Denim 3 Briar Rose
22. Song? 1 From Where I'm Standing-Schuyler Fisk 2 Breakfast at Tiffany's-Deep Blue Something 3 Hard to Say-Blues Traveler
23. Band? 1 Dave Matthews 2 Counting Crows 3 Third Eye Blind
24. Singer? 1 Schuyler Fisk 2 Jay-Z/Eminem 3 Ani DiFranco
25. Artist? 1 Nick Brandt 2 Salvador Dali 3 Geogia O'Keeffe
26. Author? 1 Dave Sedaris
27. Film? 1 Requiem for a Dream 2 Fight Club 3 Donnie Darko
28. Cartoon character? 1 Any of the Carebears 2 Elmo 3 Oscar the Grouch
29. City? 1 Rome 2 New York 3 Geneva
>SEX-RATED<
30. The sexiest actor/actress? Hmm…there are a lot of ties….Hugh Laurie, Christopher Meloni, Shane West, Hayden Christensen, Johnny Knoxville…. 31. Sexiest musician? Hmm, DMX and Eminem are both very sexy….but so is Justin Timberlake….I'm embarrassed to admit that. 32. Most arousing place to be kissed? Neck or Back 33. Most arousing place to be touched? Well, there are a lot of those…. 34. Ultimate fantasy place to have sex? The beach I guess…..but on a blanket or something so I wouldn't get sand in my ass crack 35. Oral sex? Quite enjoyable 36. Are you still a virgin? Of course ;) I'm an angel.
>NAMES<
37. Cat? Livingston 38. Dog? Lucy…it was Lucy, but I had to put her down this summer 39. Boy? Caleb, Aaron, Silus or Wyatt 49. Girl? Celeste, Sigourney, Delaney, or Tierney 41. House? Well, I live in an apartment, but it is widely known in Ann Arbor as "The Dungeon," because it is located in a basement 42. Street? Hill Street 43. Teddybear? I have many….
<> The Redundant Basics <> 44. What's the name that all your friends call you by? Allie or Al, and then there are some that have a number of other more embarrassing nicknames for me 45. How old are you? 20 46. What nationality are you? American and Canadian 47. What are your Astrology and Chinese Zodiac Signs? Capricorn and Tiger 48. In terms of politics, do you sit on the left or the right? Far left 49. Look in the mirror…the color of your hair is? Dirty blonde 50. Look in the mirror one more time…what color are your eyes? Hazel—they change
<> Home Sweet Home <> 51. Who are all those other people living in your house? Those would be my housemates: Keely, Kari and Jenna 52. Do you get along with Mom or Dad better? Probably my Dad 54. Any siblings living outside the house? Yes, both my sisters and my brother-in-law. 55. What's the name of the place you live in currently? Ann Arbor, Michigan 56. You love it there, don't you? Why/Why not? Yes, it's quite an alternative, diverse town 57. If you could live absolutely anywhere on the Earth, what locale would you choose? Zanzibar in Africa <> Knowledge Is Power <> 58. First things first…Private or Public School? Private 59. What grade/level? Sophmore in college 60. What is/are the class(es) you can't wait to get to? I'm a psychology major, so psychology classes…. 61. How about the class you consider Bedtime? Economics 62. Are you an English/Art, or a Math/Science person? English/Art 63. What sports do/have you play(ed)? Gymnastics, Diving, Trampoline, Swimming, Tennis, Skiing and Snowboarding
<> Confidentiality & Beliefs <> 64. What's your worst fear? Have you ever experienced this fear? Leeches—I am absolutely terrified of them….and yes. I went on a long canoe trip and got a leech attached to my ankle. It hurt so bad and I had to burn it off and listen to it screeching. 65. Do you believe in God? Jesus? Satan? Heaven? Purgatory? Hell? Not sure, not sure, no, no and no. 66. Do you have a secret that you'll take with you to the grave? No. 67. (Friends, Religion, Politics, Family, Education, & Relationships) Organize the previous five in order of your personal preference in life: Family, Friends, Relationships, Education, Politics, Religion 68. If you could change one thing about your physical looks, what would it be? Umm, a lot of things… 69. If you could change one thing about your personality, what would it be? I talk too much 70. Have you ever cried in front of someone, and felt ashamed of it? Yes, I hate crying in front of people. 71. Have you ever done drugs? Which ones? Yes. Are you serious? You want we to make a list?
<> The Small & Silver Screens <> 72. Generally, what genre of movies do you jump at the opportunity to see? (Action, Adventure, Horror, Drama, Romance, Science Fiction): Horror 73. Who is the actress you most admire? Who is the actor you most admire? Scarlet Johansson, Ed Norton 74. Do you cry during/after certain movies? If "yes", what was the last movie you remember crying at? Very rarely. "Life as a House." 75. What time of day do you prefer to see movies? (Morning, Noon, or Night) Night 77. What is the TV show you never miss? House 78. What is it that you like about it so much? Hugh Laurie is hot, and you love to hate him and hate to love him….plus I love medical shows 79. Do you personally think that you spend too much time watching TV? Definitely.
<> Bon Appetite <> 80. What's your favorite meal? I love fondue, pizza….I'm a carbs and cheese type of girl. I love ethnic foods 81. How about your favorite dessert? Lemon bars III. When only a kid, did you eat your vegetables? Yes 82. Do you still eat vegetables? Yes 83. Are you a poor, average, or excellent cook? I would say that I'm a pretty decent cook 84. What type of food do you prefer? Thai, Chinese, Indian, Mongolian, Greek, Italian, French, Swiss, Mexican….lots 85. Pepper or Salt? Both 86. Do you eat to live or live to eat? Both!
<> All's Fair In Love & War <> 87. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? I'm seeing someone 88. Do you find that most of the time you dislike the people who like you or vice versa? Used to, not anymore. 89. In terms of relationships, are you loving or manipulative? Both? Both 90. Do you live to love? Or would you rather just love to live? Live to love 91. Do you believe that sex should come before or after marriage? Do you care? Before….what if you marry someone who sucks in bed? 82. Do you plan to marry? If so, at what age? Yes, hopefully in my mid-20's 83. Do you plan to have children? If so, how many? Yes, all boys. Two or three. 84. Are your parents married, or divorced? Married, for 35 years. 85. Do you want to have a big, spectacular wedding with everyone you know invited or a small, traditional, get-together with family and close-friends wedding? Small | | |
| Artist/Band: Underwood Carrie Lyrics for Song: Before He Cheats Lyrics for Album: Some Hearts
Right now he's probably slow dancing with a bleached-blond tramp, and she's probably getting frisky. right now he's probably buying her some fruity little drink cause she can't shoot whiskey. right now, he's probably up behind her with a pool-stick, showing her how to shoot a combo and he don't know...
I dug my key into the side of his pretty little suped up 4 wheel drive, carved my name into his leather seats. I took a louisville slugger to both head lights, slashed a hole in all 4 tires. maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.
right now, she's probably up singing some white-trash version of Shania karoke.. right now, she's probably saying "I'm drunk" and he's thinking that he's gonna lucky, right now, he's probably dabbing on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom polo. and he don't know...
I dug my key into the side of his pretty little suped up 4 wheel drive, carved my name into his leather seat... I took a louisville slugger to both head lights, slashed a hole in all 4 tires... maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.
I might've saved a little trouble for the next girl, cause the next time that he cheats.. oh you know it won't be on me! no.. not on me..
I dug my key into the side of his pretty little suped up 4 wheel drive, carved my name into his leather seat... I took a louisville slugger to both head lights, slashed a hole in all 4 tires... maybe next time he'll think before he cheats. ohh.. maybe next time he'll think.. before he cheats...
ohh... before he cheats... ohhhh.
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| I stepped off the plane. Tulsa. The first few cowboy hats and mullets were a very distressing site for me, but by the time we reached the baggage claim I barely even noticed them. "They say it's the buckle of the Bible belt." A Kazakhstanian man who apparently lived in Tulsa chuckled to me. I tried to mimic the chuckle, but after spending the summer in Philadelphia, the thought of a drive-by shooting was much less troublesome than the thought of being drive-by baptized, so I stood quietly masking the uneasy feeling that had taken the form of butterflies in my stomach. I remembered wondering why the hell anyone would put an eating disorder clinic in Tulsa, Oklahoma of all places. My best friend Mary had had the answer. "Because there is absolutely fucking nothing there. There's nothing to do." During our phone conversation I didn't care about the comment at all, because I hadn't faced up to the reality yet: I was going to Tulsa, whether I liked it or not, to live with a bunch of girls and get cured of an eating disorder that had been lingering for about five years. I've always been one to put off thinking about unpleasant thing until absolutely necessary. Now, I was not only facing reality, I was IN it, and it sucked. When my mother and I arrived in the hotel room in which we would be staying for the night, or where shoe would be staying and where I THOUGHT I would be staying, she leafed through a bunch of pamphlets about the city that she had picked up at the airport. "We seem to be the only guests at this hotel. It must be because it's Labor Day." She said cheerfully. "You know why we are the only guests at this hotel?" I asked her, with a scowl on my face. "Why?" She asked casually. "'Cause who the hell do you know who would come to TULSA on vacation?" I stared at her and she looked back blankly. "It's not that bad. You're not here for the rest of your life." She tried to comfort me. "You're right. Only for God knows how long of my Sophomore year of college." ________________________________________________________________________________________________
And so began my second trip to an eating disorder clinic following my relapse after I went to the first clinic on the east coast. But it was far from smooth sailing. The first night I got to Tulsa with my mother, I landed myself in the ER because I had alcohol poisoning, and two months into my treatment at the eating disorder clinic, I got kicked out and sent to Rehab for possession of cocaine in a treatment facility. Then after that, I was privileged enough to be able to come BACK to the eating disorder clinic in Tulsa for another three weeks before discharging to come back to school. So here I am....in Ann Arbor, writing on my xanga site that I have neglected for so long....and let me tell you, this is when I can truly say with confidence that this time, I'm not facing reality, I'm IN it, and it sucks. | | |
| Here is an unearthly silence of death, And she stands empty and alone. The earth has taken it's last breath, Helpless and weak--she is on her own. Is this a nightmare or a sedistic dream? She prays to fall into endless sleep, Something powerful and supreme. But in her mind, the shadows creep. Confused and filled with neglect and disdain, She wanders aimlessly in this place. She wonders if she will forever remain, But wishes to vanish without a trace. There is no evidence of life here, Nothing but eerie darkness and dust. She is overcome by uncontrollable fear, The world rots, decays, begins to rust. Punished for the seven deadly sins, The earth is now excruciatingly bare, Humanity has lost and now evil wins. Under the Devil's unforgiving glare.
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